PERFECTIONIST

You wanted
in your life span

the perfect skin
the perfect lips
the perfect nose
the perfect woman
the perfect man

yet you lost
in your history
in the Gulag
Dachau
Hiroshima
Nagasaki

you lost
in the lottery
even in therapy
yet your soul
was not yet free

as your vetted goal
was to get out of poverty
for you met in the park
a  millionaire surgeon
who gave you everything

and offered you
even more perfect skin
the perfect hips
the perfect man
the perfect woman

but you died
from grief
for you believed
no one cared
in your brief life span
after all you shared
was crossed out
as it was to forget you
in your obituary.